I'm selfish, it seems

Today, for the first time in my life, I was called selfish. This was a revelation to me, because most people who know me well have told me I'm not selfish. I've been called a lot of terrible things in my life. Selfish was never one of them. I tried to console myself with the fact that this person has a warped view on life, her opinions mean nothing to me, and she only sees me from a distant, self-absorbed narrow perspective. However, it still hurt. There were a lot of things she could have gotten away with calling me, but she chose this one.

So, to confirm it I went to the ultimate trustworthy resources. And I didn't cheat. And I was crying while I did these, because that's how sincerely I want an unbiased answer.

You Are 23% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well. But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How Selfish Are You?

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"You are 5% selfish!"

 

Good for you!You are a very good person. Make sure you keep that special quality about you the rest of your life.

Are you selfish?
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Your result for The Selfish Test...

PERFECT BALANCE

You scored 39 %vanity and 84 %loyalty!

I wish you all the best in life! If everyone had a partner like you then maybe the world would be a better place. You will always consider someones feelings before your own and you're unlikely to think that you are better than another person which is a great trait to have. Being the way you are, you may not always get respected so don't allow anyone to walk all over you.

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Your result for The Are You Too Selfish Test...

The Pushover

You scored 13 selfishness!

Wow. You don't appear to have a selfish bone in your body. You are the type of person who is so eager to please others, that you tend to forget about your own needs. While this can be considered a good quality, it can also become your enemy as people tend to use you and walk all over you.

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Your result for The how selfish are you test...

The Saint

80% selfless!

You are the pinnacle of human decency and kindness. You'd give your last dime to a complete stranger. You probably spend your spare time rescuing kittens from fires and campaigning for human rights. Congratulations! You scored the highest possible score on this test.

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Okay, I think that's enough tests or else I'll become arrogant. I think I should just look at the opinions of people I actually love and trust (i.e. not the mean person). Also, I shouldn't just rely on the judgements of humans, but assess myself through the standards of Christ and God's Word (of course, this means I am selfish because I could never be as selfless as God).

It's over. Kind of.

Something significant happened today. Something that should have happened a long time ago. And I was in a foul mood because of several factors:
a. I have been to uni EVERY DAY for over four weeks now, including easter and weekends
b. This excludes the last 2 days because I was sick from medications and then in hospital
c. I still feel sick
d. I have a lot going on that I feel like I'm failing at
e. The person who left has kind of screwed us over several times already and was very much due to go. For someone so desperate to leave she took her sweet time
f. She proceeded to trash the carpet moving her stuff and seemed surprised that I was still expecting her to pay for cleaning
g. Her boyfriend then proceeded to talk condescendingly to me, and I was so angry that I have no idea what he said, nor do I care. I don't have a high opinion of him. And that's fine, cos I believe she looks down on my boy anyways, even though he is way more awesome =P

(and if she reads this that's too bad for her)

I am annoyed.

But anyway, due to my anger and the significant event, I listened to some Eskimo Joe and came across this song that sums up the situation pretty well.

A friend went away to another town
Where you set your watch to the sound of a pound
The first girl I loved soon followed it seemed
And when the second one went we were choosing teams
She got hers and I got mine
But somehow everybody seem to get on fine
But we were losing friends over love
Losing friends over love

When I went out just the other night
I said, "Put your hands up, cause we're gonna fight"
But who am I to act so tough
When I learn so little
And forget so much?
Now the heart will break when it hits the ground
So wake up little girl you're a woman now
But we were losing friends over love
Losing friends over love
We were losing friends over love
Losing friends over love

Alright now

Some move forward and some move back
Some buy a ticket and don't come back
How did everything go wrong?
We all just try to carry on
Some grow up and some fall down
Some buy a ticket and leave this town
How did everything go wrong?
We all just try to carry on

No one says a word but their lips are poised
But everyone's got an opinion of course
And we were losing friends over love
Losing friends over love
All the stupid things you do at night
When you been up for three days
And you're so uptight
And we where losing friends over love
Losing friends over love

She could run away to London
She could run overseas
And go round in another town
It all seems the same to me

Alright now

I'm tired of trying to being the nice mouse. I'm not nice. And it wasn't my love that lost friends.

The common factor

I have recently discovered that at all levels of the medical profession, from doctors to administrative types, there exists beings whose sole purpose is to be incompetent and to ensure you feel like a terrible person with no real medical problems.

This was something I was aware of with GPs especially, and the last seven months has been a testimony to that fact. The incompetent GP I have been seeing, for the seven+ months I've been sick, has been pretty much incompetent and unreliable. After many false promises and waxing strong about onions, he finally did the only good thing he has ever done and sent me to a good specialist (after he made up a lot of lies on my referral and excluded information that was actually important).

Today the extent of nasty incompetence was revealed to me further when I went to Medicare to get a refund. The specialist sent me for an ultrasound. It turns out he wanted to ultrasounds done. It was all fine. Unfortunately it cost a fair bit, but the receptionist printed out the receipt.

"Take this to Medicare. You will get 70% back."

So that's what I did. But rather than getting 70%, or even being treated like a human being, I got this (what it sounded like the lady actually meant I have added in italics):

Nasty lady: I can't do this. You had two ultrasounds. Did you have them on the same day?

Me: (confused) I already had them.

Nasty lady: That's what I said. But why did you have to have two? Did the doctor say you had to have two? (You didn't need two. One was enough. But you are a hyperchondriac and you are selfish, taking up time and resources like this!)

Me: (more confused) Oh err... yeah I had two.

Nasty lady: I can't give you money for both scans. If you didn't have them on the same day I could give you money for both. But you had them on the same day (another sign of your selfishness, you pig! You should have taken them on separate days, but no! You didn't want to be inconvenienced!). I can't give you a refund for both.

Me: Oh err...

Nasty lady: If you want money for both you need to go back to your doctor and get him to write out why you needed to have two scans. Either that or I can just give you money for one. (Haha, you will not be ripping off my system, white trash!)

By this time I was nearly in tears because of her accusing tone, so I just took the money offered to avoid going through this again.

What hurts isn't the fact that the government has ripped me off. What hurts is the fact that this cow (sorry for the language, but I'm angry and upset) couldn't just tell me that the government system is so stuffed up that by having two ultrasounds in the same session I wasn't going to get much money back. She had to tell me in an accusing tone, making it sound like I didn't need the two ultrasounds, and I should have had them in different sessions, but out of my selfishness and paranoia I'd done it my way anyway and thought I'd got away with it.

I wasn't the one who booked two ultrasounds. I didn't have a choice as to when I had them. I didn't know having them in the same session affected my medicare refund (and the receptionist at the Private Hospital didn't know either). Clearly the doctor must have thought it was necessary to have two otherwise he wouldn't have booked them; why did I need a written explanation from him? Did they think I'd twisted his arm and begged him to let me have two? What the...?

Jerks.